Sunday 24 July 2011

listening to rain at her place..

calling her now..and she fell asleep...but i din end the call ..because i wanna heart the rain sounds at her place..raining heavily at her place now...totally love it <3 love her so much

Saturday 23 July 2011

wo ai ni..ni xiang xin ma?

today i've found that my msg actually could be saved as a notepad into the computer....as i connected it..i saw again my saved msg directory...a msg which hurt me alot at the past...a msg of she saying tht she actually has a bf.....and apology to me.....i forwarded tht msg to her....to tell her how bad she treats me b4, now and future...owez the same! her all time favourite word is DUI BU QI ...
* i know she feels bad either to love two persons...being with him but still thinking of me...she feels suck i know but why does she still love him so much when tellin me she loves me so much....i so envy...why didnt her make decision till now..why still pending it..why still kissing him tht day? so painnnnn*
asked her again...who would she choose? me or him? who does she love...me or him?...
she answered ..."wo ai ni, ni xiang xin ma?"
i answered "wo xiang xin..."
then i texted her again..tht she asked me to wait her graduate 1st bcoz she needs time to leave him right??right dear?? ...haix...
if she doesnt love me why burden herself to sms me always care me always..console me always when i emo...owez be there for me....and even force herself to phone call with me altho she tired..altho a student she shud be sleeping earlier but she spent tht sleeping time to accompany me just to get me happy and get me sleep..dun even care her academic result anymore...dun care her healthy schedule ...why doesnt she be selfish? also really this time she planned wisely to give me tht slot for me to call ( i duno how she told her bf to get me / reserve me tht slot...) i know she loves me..i know...she even said even cant be with me..the one she is thinking in her heart is me...i know she telling truth!!

Thursday 21 July 2011

return....

just called her...she said the things i said made her feel touched..i told her tht is because i sincerely said it...she said wo ai ni ....i asked her when only could she accept me..she said she already accepted me..i asked again when can be with you...she said wait her finish study first....wait her return from overseas....i thanked her ..I love her..

*i believe what she said is true...she would be with me after she finishes her study..i definitely will wait because i very love her....*

Tuesday 19 July 2011

choose the second..

me: If you are in love with two person, choose the second person. because if you are really in love with the first, you wouldn't have fallen for the second

dear: ni zhen me hui xiang dao de? 

me: yin wei wo ai ni...

me: wo shi zhen de ai ni de, ni xuan wo hao ma, wo yao he ni yi qi dao lao, he ni jie hun , wo yong yuan ai ni, dear....

dear: dear,wo ai ni

me: wo ye ai ni, wo hen ai ni,dear, wo ai ni,wo yong yuan ai ni
me: ni ye yi yang jue de ma?



dear: bu gao shu ni, blek

me: dear, bu yong gao shu wo , ru guo ni shi zhen de ai zhe wo, ni ye hui yi yang gan jue de, wo zhi dao ni ai wo, wo  de gan jue wo bu hui pian wo, wo dui ni you xin xin


* if you already asked " ni zhen me hui xiang dao de" , then i already knew you also thought of it b4, you actually indirectly just gave me an answer for my question....and feelings never lie .....i love you dear...*

Monday 18 July 2011

17th july 2011 - my new ba0beI x3 was born i will love youU

i tot she was somewhere with him coz she din reply me....i texted her using my maxis since my digi run out of credit ...actually bcoz my text memory full so i cant get any msg from her...she worried i will think alot and tried to convince me so she called...and i was driving tht time..i ended tht call since i wont able to hear her tho coz my phone spoiled...

very happy that she would call me...
 this is my new born baobei..why i call it baobei ? coz this phone alike her...i will always wait her sms her reply and owez rely on this phone in future to call her...and i will put her picha as wallpaper that makes her sayang her more n more...my baobei phone!! ^^ ILY...
maroon color is the color she choosed for me..aha..so i must learn to love it!! ^^
just called her just now...i only able to call after 12...and then she told me tht her fren called her not him..she told me when i din even ask about it..i think bcoz she scare i will think too much and bad mood...awww...this laopo very sha gua...it is me who wrong coz owez doubt her...haixxx...
then i asked her to leave her bf...without thinking much she replied in confidence.."wo hui de"....in my mind  i was thinking tht my dear has choosen me ..she had made her decision to be with me ..thts why she would leave him...she said tht in confidence without thinking much..then she said again with her tender voice.."wo ai ni dear"...my heart melt ...

just saw a good post from keQing that i would like to dedicate to her tmrw...here it goes..

If you are in love with two person, choose the second person. because if you are really in love with the first, you wouldn't have fallen for the second

Thursday 14 July 2011

honeymoon ~~

yesterday she said if i angry bcoz she hugged him she would hug me 99..last 2 nite she said wan let me call 99 then she really withstand her sleepiness...i ask her on msn she would on msn immediately to pei me chat..when i bday she promised would pei me go taiwan honeymoon....then just now i asked her again whether i hv chance honeymoon with her in future..she answered "why not"? haha....so happy le.....cant wait for it..i love u ah dear!!

Wednesday 13 July 2011

call couldnt get in

yestrday night couldnt call her , she said wait awhile and i waited for an hour, at almost 1am only could call her, the call got in after her sms...and she said wasnt her bf called her? .....i know it is weird...coz then why i cant call in she said duno? ...so FAKE...sigh....but then i was so angry i called her....listened her voice again she said she would listen to my murmur till i end the call..even till 5am she would not sleep ....she would accompany me coz she knows i couldnt sleep when my anger still there...listened to her voice...my wife scent..my heart melt again...i straight away forgive her....then we had sweet talk....haaa..so enjoying the call...it was so sweet...i love her so much..after the call ends at 3am...i hugged my pillow like i imagined i hugged her i very sayang her so muccchhieee...so happy and blissful that moment..and i happily got into sleep ^^

* she only slept for less than 5hours now..worrying her so much..sigh*...sha gua girl..pei me till so late..she is really sha gua..but i love my sha gua baobei so much x3 *

999999??? really????? hope so...

yesterday night she said will call me 99......then....she really withstand her sleepiness just to accompany me chat..today i unhappy bcoz she hugged and kissed her bf tht thing..then she said..is it bcoz of it?then i would hug u 9999999999999.......haaa..so happy..i think she will fulfill it someday like how she accompany me chat on call last night

Tuesday 12 July 2011

yesterdAy..was sad...

yesterday was real sad..she wanted me to slowly lessen sms and call to her, she just dumped her dog , get him a new owner, but im not any of her pet , i have feelings.......she just cant do like that to me...i felt so sad...
i told her i very sad....she cant do tat to me, i feel sad and heart pain..........then she said she said said only...she said she wont say that le..
today i asked her again whether she doesnt want to meet me b4 she goes overseas is bcoz wan me to slowly forget and slowly gv her up, she said, she never planned to do so, again she convinced me..then ask me not to think many...
she said forever wont forget me and forever will love me....because im already in her heart.....ILY dear..

Friday 8 July 2011

8/7/11...

me: wo zai xiang zhe wo zhi dao ni yao qu honeymoon na tian wo zhen de hao xin tong hao sheng qi, yi ci sms ni dao wo shui bu hao dao wo ku, ni he ta yi qi de shi hou sui ran ye sms wo ke shi ni he ta ye zuo le hen duo shi qing, wo bu xi huan de shi qing, shi wo bu xi huan de shi............
hai yao shuo yao wo xiang xin ni yi ci, kan dao le na me duo zhao bao gu ni kiss ta , kan dao wo xin tong , bu kai xin le ji tian, xin bu hao guo , bu neng he ni yi qi, tai yuan , mei ci fan zhe ni zai zuo me, he shuo yi qi, hen ai ni ke shi ni bu zai de gan jue...deng zhe yi ge hen ai de ren ke shi bu zhi ji shi cai neng jian ta he ta yi qi de gan jue, zhen de hao xin ku.....ba wo de quan bu , ba wo de xin gei ni..
zai fan zhe ni yao kuai qu australia le, ye yao fan zhe ni yao kuai qu taiwan honeymoon le , zhen de tao yan zhe ge gan jue, hen xi wang ni shuo de ru guo ke yi ni hui gei wo quan bu, bu shi ru guo shi ke yi...

dear: wo yao shuo shen me cai hao ne? wo hen nei jiu ye hen nan guo..wo bu xiang ni zhe yang dear..ke yi bu yao na me zai hu wo ma?ni zhe yang hui hen lei hui hen xin ku de..

me: zai xiang zhe ta bang ni upload honeymoon album ye bang le ni huan profile picture, ni zhi dao wo hui bu kai xin ni bu hui huan de, suo yi ni gao shu wo deng duo ji tian ni hui huan le, ye za xiang zhe wo sheng ri na tian ni wang ji le, rang wo deng ni, zuo di yi ge ren zhu fu wo, ke shi ni bu shi, suo yi ni jue de wo dui le ni na me hao ba ni na me chong yao ke shi ni zhe yang dui wo...suo yi ni jue de nei jiu he dui bu qi suo yi ni ku le..
ye zai xiang wo deng yao call ni na tian, ke shi ta call ni xian hai you call le na me jiu, ni zhi dao wo yao call ni ni zhi dao wo zai dan xin deng zhe, ke shi ta bu yao end call...yin wei zhe yang hou tian ni gei wo call le hen jiu..ni gao shu wo na wan wo yi ding neng call ni yin wei ni bu hui jie bie ren de dian hua le...ni hui gao shu ta men ni hen mang..wo bu kai xin de shi hou ni hui an wei wo..zuo le na me duo  wo zhen de jue de ni hao ai wo hao teng wo ke shi ni ming ming ye hen ai ta bu ran ni bu hui kiss ta de..wo bu zhi dao le..wo hen fan..dao di shi zhen yang de..dear...


dear: bu yao zai shuo le, wo kan le jiu ming bai ni de xin shi zen yang de tong le..

me: zhen me ni bu ke yi wei le wo li kai ta,zhen me hai yao ai ta, zhen me hai yao he ta qu na me duo di fang honeymoon, zhen me hai yao rang wo xin ku, rang wo lei, dear...wei shen me wei shen me wei shen me!
wei shen me ni de da an shi nei jiu he dui bu qi..wei shen me  shi yao wo li kai ni bu yao zai hu ni, yao wo he qi ta nv ren pei yang gan qing...wo hen ai ni..ni yao wo zhen yang cai zuo de dao na xie..zhen me bu shi .shi wo he ni yi qi yuan yi jian wo he wo yi qi..wei shen me yi ding shi wo..yao wo tui pu..wo de xin zhen hao tong...zhen de bu gong ping...cs...wo shi yong xin ai ni de

Thursday 7 July 2011

hwaiting!!! the love must go on~

telling myself must dont ever ever gv up..coz i know she very loves me..coz she just told me on phone just now she dreamt of me and her in her dream...if she dreamed that it means...she miss and must be thinking of us together alot...she wish about i...now looking at her auntie face picha at my wallpaper with her wearing spec..aww...i so wish she is my wife.....i love her so much..i know she loves me too..i must not gv up !! ^^ hwaiting to myself jiayou!! ^^

she shouted...

just went to her fb...she posted a comment on tuesday nite during the time i couldnt call her...she shouted at fb ....not coz stress i know..coz bcoz i angry and heartpain couldnt call her..that was why she feel bad.....now i know how much she loves me...i still thought of doubting her love to me coz just now telling myself if she loves me why doesnt she desperate to webcam with me?..and now i dont...i trust her so much now..now i recalling the way she promised to accompany me go to taiwan...also telling myself since i told her i scare log on to her fb bcoz afraid see something awful that might surprise me...thts why less things happening on her fb now..coz i know she cares me..

I WILL TRUST HER IN FUTURE......dont care what happening on her fb, she knows what to do...she planned..and the promises she said to me to be with me in future she will someday fulfill it....because i know she loves me....so for now..stop stalking her...dont stress her again ..she needs time! i love her....sooooo muchhhHH

Wednesday 6 July 2011

it was a happy day

today we didnt talk about unhappy thing, we haha alot in our sms, i guess coz she wanna me to be happy, she finished class at 3.3pm today,i said i wanna call her but she replied my sms slow and less, i guessed bcoz she was on call with another guy her ---> "bf" ...then i sms her told her "no wonder call bu dao , yuan lai gt ppl call u o"...then immediately i call again and the call succeed got in...and in the call we didnt touch any unhappy things again...she laughed alot in the call..i like her laughter so much..we talked about future, about marrige, about trust, she said my qualification is good, many gurls want me to be bf and i told her i reserve the place in my heart for her, "only for her"...i asked her in the call, whether in future she would choose me or him to be her husband, she said me,..then i said..."shi ma?" i said again...saying she said this to me but with him u said oppositely, then she convinced me that she never told him she chooses him to be husband...she said that only to me..

*i think actually it was her bf who called her, but i remmber last time bcoz last time her bf called her and made me waited at my working place so long to wait the call ends, thts why now i guess she find excuses to end her bf call just to lemme call...she spares alot of time on call with me, bcoz she loves me and sayang me but also bcoz i cant spend time together with her in reality thts why she sayang me so much thru sms and call as compensation , but i still appreciate and love her so much *
i called my fren after her, i told my fren about me and her, i told my fren i was so happy, i said she will try to explain whenever there is misunderstand happens, and even reserve slot for me to call..then my fren told me "wahhh gt chance"...and i told myself yes i have chance too ^^ I love her so much!! x3

Tuesday 5 July 2011

fb

duno y when see her fb with less post i feel glad and "an xin" to log out ...it is like a day without she doing something wrong behind my back..haaaa....

she said she miss me

today..she said she miss me twice...without i texting her at 1st place....1st msg was after she back from skool..4.17pm and just now 10.30pm she sms me again say she miss me..haha..i think she thinks me all the time le ^__^ so happy...

the way she promised me....

yesterday night couldnt call her, my heart so pain waiting, i was thinking she <3 with her boy on phone, heartache..wait till 12.3am i really no mood to call her and treat as if nothing happened, i kept sms her , angry sms......she replied all her fault , just say anything i want ...then she said "wo mei you xiang ni shuo de na yang, wo yao end ta bu yao , ni zhen de wu hui le"
few minutes later after i've sent those bombastic angry sms, i decided to call her...8calls were made , and she didnt pick any of them...and i sent sms telling her i would wait her to9, i told her i cant sleep..
4am, she sms-ed me..."dear, zuo tian wo zhen de bu shi yao he ta chat na me jiu de, wo yao end ta de call, ta shuo duo yi xia, wo zhi dao ni zai deng wo, wo zen me hui bu dan xin, ke shi ni ye bu xiang xin wo, wo hen nan guo, wo sheng qi wei shen me wo yao zhe yang shang hai ni? shuo hao le yao deng ni call ke shi zuo hou qie rang ni deng, wo bu zhi dao yao zhen yang he ni jiao dai ni cai bu hui sheng qi wo"
right after i read that msg, my heart got melted and forget her immediately..she replied again " ni you shui ma? bu yao dan xin wo, bu yao li wo, wo bu xiang ni guan xin wo, wo mei yong, ni bu yao reply le, kuai shui ba, sry dear"

right after recieved this msg i called her, the call was 15min i told her i forgive her already, she felt better and wish me g9

today..this morning, she said " dear, jin tian wo hen xiang ni" ....she also still remember the promise she made to leave her boy... i asked her again "ru guo ni ai wo ni hui li kai ta bu shi ma" ...she said " shi de"...when i ask her to break up with him, she said again.."wo ye xiang guo le, ke shi zhen me wo hai shi mei zuo dao?"..then i replied saying..as time goes by u will make it, i will wait for it...i definitely will.....
today she said smth that made me feel she is tired..with two boys....
" wo zhi dao, wo zhen de rang ni guo de hen xin ku, dear, wo bu xiang zhe yang de, wo ye bu hao guo de, wo zhi xiang ai yi ge jiu gou le, wo hen lei"
awww...dear....ni hen ke lian ni zhi dao ma..wo zhi dao bing bu shi ni de cuo , ni ye bu yao zhe yang de...

i pity my wife now...she tried her best not to hurt any of us already, like she also knows im stalking her fb, she doesnt post much thing to hurt me le....i control her so much...at nite picked two calls..daylight during class sms me alot...what about time to study? and when sleep less than 6hours how could she survive? i feel so bad treat my dear like this...

5.2pm i called her, today she knows i wish to call her right after she gets home..she naturally sms me ask me "dear, ni xian zai call wo ma?"...and i called her without replying her, on the call we talked about love so much, apologized for yesterday call made me wait so long..she promised in future wont le, especially to9 she will not pick any call besides mine...even her boy call , she wont pick.....when i listened she said tht, i feel so happy i feel so special.......then i touched topic about she going to honeymoon with her boy at taiwan..soon..but i duno if her boy following, and she said it isnt honeymoon...and then she said and promised in future she will accompany me go taiwan and kidded me ask me to improve my chinese coz she wont help me at there..haha...so happy..i asked her...really!? u going to taiwan with me???...promise!?...she said "en.." ...awww..so happy so excited even think about it makes me so happy!

just now she sms me asking what am i doing...i told her i writing blog..then so she knows im not happy again..she hopes i will be happy everyday..she wrote a msg again saying "dear, ni yao kai xin o, wo hui dan xin ni de, wo xiang ru guo mei you wo ni bu hui zhi dao xin tong de gan jue,dui bu qi dear, wo ai ni "..i got so touched reading this msg.....

*after all the explanation and the promises she made, i know she very loves me, she knows my thoughts, i believe in her, believe that she will keep her promise, i know someday we could be together, because we love each others...*
*thinking twice , if she doesnt love me why she explains alot, why could she even decide not to pick anyone's call to9 and gv that slot for me, why she worry im unhappy, and why promised me alot, she wants me to be happy...why suffering everyday because of me, get herself tired because of me, the way she tells me she loves me is very sincere, i feel it everytime she said it*
*the way she promise me to go taiwan with me in future, the way she said "yi hou ah....yi hou "....is so convincing, she said it without any doubt, like she would gv me everything in future, makes me feel secure*

Sunday 3 July 2011

she loves me, she likes me, she cant let me go...

yesterday call, she said she loves me , she said really likes me so much...she said there are times she wants to let me go so much, but she cant......
this morning she sms so early....i guess as she wakes up she miss me so much already...

Saturday 2 July 2011

i trusted her...and i trust her

on my bday night she was worrying about her profile picture changed issue..she told me...told me that few more days she would change again......and today i went her fb..she really changed it...i guess...the promise she promised to see me meet me will also come true..hopefully...........*pray hard to god*
Me: dear, wo wen ni..wo sheng ri ni bu neng jian wo mei guan xi, ke shi wo hen xiang zhi dao, ni australia hui lai le ye hui yi yang ma?wo hen xiang zhi dao
Dear: bu hui le...bu hui zhe yang le...


P:S now....im thinking the way she say whatever to make me feel alright to explain her fault to save me from heartache ...i love her so much...