Thursday 30 June 2011

SO HAPPY!!! she sang bday song for my bday!! ^___^

So happy now...my dear just sang me a bday song...”zhu ni sheng ri kuai le...zhu ni sheng ri kuai le, dear xi wang ni mei yi tian du kuai le...la la la la” haha...awwww..so happy to max now,this is the best gift she had given, today she allocated so much space for me , i wanted to end the call earlier but..hahaa...she said “du hai mei 6 dian, bu yao la..deng dao 6dian xian..aha..omg! haha..she wanted to talk longer..this morning call also..at 1.3am plus when ended the call as i tot she was slept...but haha..she sms me again dear why end call..haha...then call her again le....she so tired i know haaaa..but she still pei me till 2am coz it is my day!! Haha....so happy le..just now de call she said want do me cake also but she said not nice to eat de..but  i dun mind sure..coz i love her..sure i will eat it till finish....haha..she also said wish can be with me someday, go paktor..so happy..haha...paktor like how it happened in her dream...then i told her wish she will not forget her bday wish “that is when she back from overseas she would meet me” , then we would paktor then get married..haha..so happy....
After the call almost end coz want 1hour le, i silently shout telling her LCS WO AI NI!! WO AI NI!!! YONG YUAN DU AI NI!!!! Haha..so happy...she replied..dear WO YE AI NI..haha
I also told her talking to her i very so blissful coz as if she was there for me , i also said wo hen xi huan ni, ni shi wo yi sheng yi shi ai de nv sheng...she also said wo xi huan ni....haaaa
She also said i owez make her feel touched that money cant buy...money can buy de is happy but happy awhile jiu disappear le while gan dong de gan jue shi yong yuan zai xin li...awww

wo men liao jie dui fang x3

dear:  Dear, ni zhen me zhi dao wo zai xiang shen me ne, ni bu yao zai shuo na xie gan dong wo de hua le


me:  Wo zhen me bu zhi dao ne? Ni ku yin wei wo xiang zhao dian call ni yao ni pei wo liao dian hua pei wo yi qi guo na ge 12 dian , zuo di yi de ren zhu wo sheng ri kuai le, ke shi ni mei you, ni hai yin wei chi yi dian he wo liao dian hua hai hao yin wei ni zhen de wang ji le, ni ye zuo wang rang wo bu kai xin, ke shi dear, wo zhi dao, ni hui zhi dao, ni huan na zhong zhao hui rang wo bu kai xin de, suo yi wo hen ken ding bu shi ni yao huan de yin wei ni bu hui gu yi shang wo de, wo zhi dao ni hen teng wo de, dear, ni de xin gao shu wo ru guo ke yi de hua ni hui ba quan bu gei wo, yao wo zuo kai kai xin xin de yi ge , na ge shi zhen xin hua de , suo yi ni de xin de xiang fa, hen teng wo de gan jue, he nei jiu de gan jue rang ni zi ji control bu dao emotion jiu liu yan lei le..dear...wo kan dao ni de xin dear, wo hen teng ni hen ai ni, wo zhi dao ni hen ai wo , wo yi jing hen kai xin le, dear xie xie ni dear..wo de xin li you ni, ni de xin li ye you wo, wo men zhi dao dui fang de xin zai xiang shen me, suo yi wo mei hou hui ai shang ni, ye mei hou hui deng ni na me jiu, yin wei wo yu dao le wo yi sheng yi shi wo hui ai de nv sheng, LCS,yong yuan ai ni

Dear: Dear, ni de xin li hua wo du ming bai le, xie xie ni bu guai wo, wo neng yu jian ni shi wo de fu qi, xie xie ni gei le wo zhe ge, fu qi dear..ni bu yong shuo, wo xin li ye ming bai de, ni dui wo shi zhen de yong xin qu ai de, wo yong yuan bu hui wang ji ni, yong yuan ai ni, kiss

*She scared that coz i too understand her thoughts le, i understood why she tears for me yesterday, she said sometimes what i told her is too vivid, too clear, she so scare coz i can read her mind..dear..i wan to tell you that you can read my mind too! ^^ ILY dear..*

she cried.....bcoz she realised she so not so good for me when im too good for her, but then she compensate on my bday day...haaa

she sad...because my bday she also forgot..she said she too "fan" till forget...i told her since 10.3pm wanna call her, she kept saying later later..but i see her on fb ...she made me waiting..waiting for her to be 1st to greet my bday ...she even sad coz my bday she also made me unhappy bcoz of the profile pic..she told me dont worry...few days later she will change the profile pic ...she also told me if could she would give me everything....actually these few sentence already made me so happy..so dear..pls dont feel guilty anymore
dear..i want to tell u that....
dear, ni hen nei jiu yin wei wo na me chong yao de ren ni du hui wang ji wo de sheng ri, ni ye nei jiu yin wei ni zuo wan profile picture rang wo bu kai xin...ni ye ku le yin wei, wo 10.3pm zuo tian kai shi xiang deng call zhe ni, xiang ni di yi ge ren pei wo guo 12pm, zhu wo sheng ri kuai le..ke shi ni hen mang..wo ye kan dao ni on fb..du bu yao he wo liao dian hua...yin wei ni zhen de wang ji le wo de bday...suo yi ni dui zhi ji hao shi wang yin wei ni bu shi di yi ge ren zhu wo sheng ri kuai le...ni rang wo deng le dao 12dian...wo yi ci wen ni  hao le ma...ni shuo deng duo xia...yin wei ni zhen de wang ji le...
dear...ni zhi dao ma.....ni de profile picture...ni shuo ni zhi dao wo hui bu kai xin kao dao de, suo yi ni bu hui huan de...wo xiang xin ni dear, wo zhi dao bu shi ni yao huan de...ni jiao wo suan le ba..qi shi wo yi jing bu xiang xiang na xie le...wo zhen de suan le..
dear o....ni zuo wan gao shu wo deng duo ji tian ni hui huan profile picture, ni ye shuo ru guo ke yi ni hui gei wo quan bu, ni ye shuo my bday wish will come true, hai you ni yong kou zhu wo sheng ri kuai le he ni de sms bday greet yi jing dong dao wo de xin le..
dear...wo fa xian le ..wo hen ai ni!!! wo ai ni tai shen le!!! wo hen ai ni dear!!! yong yuan du ai ni...ni fang xin dear..you yi tian...ni hui he wo yi qi de, wo dui wo men de ai qing you xin xin , wo dui ni de ai you xin xin, wo tai ai ni le,...yi hou wo men hui jie hun de, wo men hui zai yi qi dao lao...yin wei wo men hen ai dui fang , hui wei le dui fang liu yan lei, zuo wan ni hen lei du pei le wo dao 2am, wo hen gan dong, rang hou xia yu le..wo hen xiang ni...wo kan...god also crying le know our love story..CS..i love u so much!!! <3

Wednesday 29 June 2011

is that important?

yesterday call was happy...was so sad thinking her kissin him , but then in the call, she made me happy as firecrackers were launched front her house, she kidded me how beautiful it is, and i pretended as i was beside her and said tht green,red,blue colors are beautiful...tht feelin so happy.....and when i said about things that hurt me...like her.....then she dooot dooot dooot..pretend as the phone line not good din hear anything..she really made me happy
today...her bf changed her profile pic....she told me she would know i would sad seeing that, she wont do that, definitely not her...i asked her to change profile pic..she said i wont gv her trouble right?....on the second time i asked her..she asked me in return whether is that important...
actually i know what happens in her fb , her relationship status on her fb not important...most important is that her heart has me....
she tagged her boy and said she miss the day...i asked her then why she does so...then she answered she miss everything there .....she said "nan guai wo de xin li mei you ni ma"....

Tuesday 28 June 2011

chance

today she told me as time goes by human will change..so she said i will have chance...she also said she understands i treat her like a wife , go to work because of her, and listened my problems everyday like my wife...she said she loves me.....she said she understands..awww

Monday 27 June 2011

i will not give up !! chance will come

told myself dont give up , because i know sometimes she really looked for chance to leave him and be with me, she always think of me and miss me, she loves me, she always worrying me and texting me sms, she is the only girl who concerns me alot, she said she really thought of marrying me she said very "xin fu" , at class she also miss me and think of me...when time with her bf she also will think of me, she let me to call her and talked so long also "heart to heart" , she also doesnt want to let me go, her heart always worrying me and when me sad her heart will pain and sad...although 2 years but it didnt change anything bcoz our true love has just started!! year b4 we dont love each other tht much, but now we do! so chance will come...years is just a parameter
most important is she told me by giving example of ppl marry le also divorce, she also told me she no plan to marry him also said in one of her video saying her marriage would be like next 10 years...

precious msg...

now i imagining if i were her, i with a bf, of coz i will snap many pics too, body was there but my soul wasnt there, holding a phone keep replying msg and worrying and moodless, maybe had fun there but just awhile bcoz mind wasnt really there...if i were her, sure i will having hard time to find time to reply me , she tried her best, she so shagua...also she picked my call at late nite like prosecute herself..she said she "dai sei"...
she knew that in this world a guy who loves her the most more than her bf does is me, i also realised i really love her...all her msg writen thoroughly with heart..with concerns and love..

she loves me cause she knows what am i thinking, my mind,problems and complexity she completely understands it than anyone does, her heart feel guilty, pain and suffer because seeing someone she loves being like this...she said...she feel happy and sad bcoz met a good guy like her who very loves her, she said if could , she wants to accompany me till her last day of life, she said if there is next reincarnation, she would want to marry me again, and she hopes i will still treat her like this good, she asked whether love really can make me dont care other ppl , she said she very touched and she hopes that she can be duplicated so that wont hurt any of us,

she said my love to her is "tai wei da", she couldnt leave me but only could die for me......
(dear, ni dui wo de ai tai wei da le, wo bu neng li kai ni zhi neng wei ni si ba le )

she said when im not happy, her heart very pain, then she realised that she really fall in love with me le, she asked for apology...( ni bu kai xin de shi hou, wo de xin hui hen tong, suo yi wo zhi dao wo zhen de ai shang le ni, dear, yuan liang wo )

 she said if could she doesnt want me to wait her very suffer, if could she wants to accompany de person definitely is me  ( ke yi de hua wo bu hui rang ni deng de na me xin ku, ke yi de hua wo yao pei de ren yi ding shi ni )

she loves me

although for what happens....i know she loves me too...because of her sms content proves it, because she said bcoz of me her heartache, very suffer.....she kept sms me to console me...she also wont gv me up, she loves me, for what happened for tht trip , she let me called her 3hours yesterday, and fine herself to pick my call and have sleepless night during the trip..i know she loves me...
*addition*: when the call accidentally ended, she called me, three times ady, i know she concerns me...

Sunday 26 June 2011

disappointed

i very sad now...im crying...just saw her honeymoon pictures...i convince myself again everyone goes there definitely will take picture at each slot like she does, i convince myself she hold her phone with worry, worry i alone so she  pei me...she still cares me...convince myself she didnt change her profile pic bcoz of me too...but about her kissin pic pose..i tot her bf asked so..so i asked her whether she did that naturally or not, but sadly her answer is..she got drunken and duno what she was doing..."wo ye bu zhi dao, yin wei wo he le jiu, dui bu qi , dear" .....her answer killed me deep inside ....im so disappointed

she loves me right?

she loves me right? she moodless most of time during her trip bcoz of me, because she loves me right ? she loves me bcoz she goes for trip yet she still sms me alot......she still care me, she moodless , depress, heartache also bcoz of me, bcoz she loves me right? it just hard for her to do bcoz her bf invited her and she luckily won the ticket right? HAIZZZ....convincing myself like a stupid guy now.......my heart so pain
...just stalked her fb again, she didnt tag herself, nor reply tht picture but with just a LIKE on it, like other couple they will change to couple pic as profile, her bf does but she doesnt, it means she loves me right? right???...haix

ta qu le wonderful trip ke shi most of time ta sms wo hen duo, ta hen guan xin wo , ta yao an wei wo, wei le an wei wo, ta zi ji hen nei jiu, jue de hen dui bu qi wo, ta hen lei , ta de xin ye lei le, wo zui hou sms wo "wo wu hua ke shuo le dear" , i very bad, keep shooting her, until she feel tired, moodless , depressed and heartache, b4 go trip she picked my nite call, listened to my complaint, listened to my tears and then replied many my angry sms, the next day she spent most of time sms me, and at night picked my call again and listen to my complaint again till 4.4am, in the call she told me i can sms her when i wake up can sms her, she wants me to feel i am by her side, now as i stalk her fb, she didnt comment their couple pic, but only liked it, her bf tagged her not she, she didnt change profile pic but her bf does change to their couple pic, i now recalling one of her sms , she said " bu guan wo zai na li, he shui yi qi, wo du hui xiang ni du hui sms ni"
  dear...actually i just want to tell you that, i complaint many and didnt trust u many in my sms , not bcoz i dont trust u, actually i trust u but i want u to comfort me, comfort my heart, bcoz "the only person who can hurt my heart is you and subsequently the only person can heal my heart is you too, ILY dear"

reasons why.......and would she keep her promise? haix..

me: ye zai xiang, ta na me ai ni, ta bu hui zuo cuo, zuo dui bu qi ni de shi, jia ru you, ni ye hen kuai yuan liang ta, zhe yang continue wo gen ben mei ji hui he ni yi qi, ni yong yuan bu hen xin, ta yong yuan wu gu, wo yong yuan bu neng jian ni, yin wei ni zuo wan gao shu le wo ni bu hui jian wo chu le ni he ta feng shou, ni da ying le wo ni australia hui lai hui jian wo , ke shi na ge shi an wei wo de hua, zhen de hua shi, ni he ta feng shou le cai ke yi he wo yi qi, ni bu he wo yi qi, yin wei ni pa wo hui gen she bu de ni, ni shuo mei jian ni de shi hou , wo yi jing yao zhi sha le, jian le ni , ni jue de hui bi worse than before meet, ni yong yuan bu hui he liang ge ren same time have relation, you keep me at sms and call limit only, wo yong yuan deng du mei gai bian shen me, ni zui hou jia gei ta, wo hao xin tong hao nan guo....
   afterward...
i told her again....ni xian zai you zi ji de wen ti bu neng jian wo mei guan xi, ke shi wo you yi ge yao qiu, wo yao ni keep ni de promise ni australia hui lai hui jian wo, bu guan ni hai you mei you he ta yi qi, ni du yao jian wo, hao ma? na ge shi hou, bu yao gei jie kou shuo jian wo dan ying he ta feng shou le, wo bu xiang ting na xie lame excuse, hao ma? promise me hao ma...?
     dear: hao de...

Saturday 25 June 2011

very depressed

seeing their sweet pictures....making me feel my life meaningless now..no point living anymore, a girl that never available for a new guy anymore, 4years that long enuf to get married soon, wondering who am i to her...
feel no mood to work tomorrow, dont want going back to school either, if only i dare enough to die...
i very depressed....my mood down this 2 days..and i guess for the following days too

history of most sad and depress day!!!..........HAIX !!!

12.45am: wo de xin ZHEN TONG!!
1.13am: tomorrow party pls dont have sex with him! HAIX!! 
1.19am: dont drink too many carlsbeg, drunken le and gv him ur virginity! MY HEART SO MUCH PAIN NOW!!!
1.21 am : wo bu shi na yang de ren dear, ni zhen me zhi dao you wo de ming zi?
1.23am: zhi bu zhi dao bu chong yao, zui zhong yao shi ni yao qu honeymoon le!! good! i cry so much now!  
1.24am: LCS, ni zhen de hao li hai! wo zhen de shou shang le!
1.28am: gao shu wo dear, ni zai na li kan dao?
1.32am: honeymoon! party! wear bikini! drink casbeg, drunken! 1 nite sex! then anohter a day beach party again! GOOD AH THIS PACKAGE! enuf to kill me!
1.42am: zhen me yao qu kan? hen kai xin admin reply ni le? hao a, ni hen qi dai o, so excited? GOOD 
1.50am: you are the only person i want to trust, but cant believe you eventually telling BIG LIES! my heart so pain!
1.51am: bu yao zhe yang shuo hao ma? wo bu hui zhe yang zuo, ni bu xin ye mei guan xi, wo mei you zuo dui bu qi ni de shi jiu xing le, dear, wo zhi dao ni hen shang xin, na tian wo xiang guo bu qu de, peng you shuo na dao le gan ma bu qu, bu shi mei ci du na me xing yun neng na dao de, wo zhi dao ni hui shang xin, wo bu gan gao shu ni, dan shi, wo xi wang ni bu yao ba wo xiang dao na me huai wo bu hui zuo na chong shi de
1.59am: bu yong zui ai! xiang dao ni men qian shou yi jing ba wo de xin shou shang le! HAHAHAHHAHA! wo zhen hao xiao! ni men shi couple, zhen me bu ke yi qian shou ne? wo zhen de tai tian zhen le! na me kai xin de shi, hai hui tag ta, bu shi hen obvious ni hen ai ta ma?hai shuo ai wo 100%!? hai yao wo deng 1 nian , hai gei jie kou bu yao pei wo de sheng ri, ni de li you shi yin wei ni ai D T 1million percent, i feel like a loser now! LIKE A BIG FOOL! so stupid always trust your love to me! good la! GO HONEYMOON BA! my heart pain till i cry now!! wo zai deng ni upload ni men HONEYMOON de pictures o! CS, i feel want to suicide now!
2.00 am: dear, ni sheng qi wo ba, wo shi da pian zi , ni bu yao zai xiang xin wo le , wo shuo de hua du shi jia de
2.01am: why must paktor! why cannot break up with him for me!
2.05am: xiang dao ni men qu beach party, wo de xin zhen tong! WO DE XIN ZHEN DE HEN TONG! hai yao liang tian! hai shi liang ge ren ba le, HAO LANG MAN O!
2.07am: you dont upload nvm, so happy and romantic de photos he will help to UPLOAD!
2.08am: sleep on same bed!! GOOD!
2.09am: I WISH CAN DIE NOW!!!
2.10am: wei shen me yao zhe yang dui wo!!! ke lian wo yi dian hao ma? wo ye shi you feeling de!
2.12AM: ENOUGH LE pls!! I REALLY HAD ENOUGH LE!!! pls dont like this do me le!!this is worst than seeing your valentine pictures!!! my heart so pain
2.14am: mei you zuo dui bu qi wo de shi?! ni hai ke yi zhe yang shuo ma? CS, you so mean to me! why like this hurt me!
2.15am: bu shi liang ge ren, hai you hen duo ren dear, shi bu shi zai yi qi zi ding hui zuo ai? na ni he qi ta nv sheng zai yi qi hui ma? ni bu yao zhe yang shuo wo, wo de xin zhen de hen nan guo, wo zai ni xin li shi zhe yang de yi ge ren ma?
2.16am: mei you zuo dui bu qi wo de shi? zhe ge shi li you ma? you xin he ta honeymoon, ba wo rang wo yi ge ren zhe li tong ku, yi jing gao shu wo ni de xin li shi zhen yang le!
2.19am: hen duo ren!? SHI BU REN SHI DE REN BA. all contestant ! but sleep also sure different room la! wo bu shi zhi pa ni zuo ai, ni he ta honeymoon yi jing shou shang wo le!! wo zai ku ah!! wo hen nan guo!
2.21am: NI BU YAO QU LE la pls pls! wo bu xi huan! wo huan gei ni qian compensation, wo huan gei ni, ni bu yao qu hao ma?
2.22am: wo qiu qiu ni dear... wo qiu qiu ni
2.24am: i beg you please HAIX....
2.28am: wo he qi ta ren qu ni ye hui xin tong ma?
2.29am: ni xian zai shi shen me yi shi? wo bday bu yao pei wo, gao shu wo yi hou bu hui le, ke shi ni xian zai hai ke yi he ta tan lian ai, he ta yi qi honeymoon, ni dao di shi yao zhen yang? yao wo deng dao lao, yao wo xin tong he gu dan jiu yi dian shi ma?
2.30am: bu hui...
2.32am: wo bu shi shuo ni shi na zhong ren hui zuo ai de, ke shi wo tai ai ni le , wo pa ni men mabuk le hui bu xiao xin zuo dao na zhong shi, wo tai ai ni cai luan xiang de, wo hen fan...
4.37am: haix, ni shui ba , bu yong li wo le
8.33am: i miss you
8.37 am: dear wo ye xiang ni
8.38am: ni bu yao qu, wo hua gei ni qian
8.47am: dear , bu shi yao qian
9.17am: ke shi ni he ta paktor!honeymoon!
9.17am: dear, ni xiang xin wo hao ma? wo bu hui zuo dui bu qi ni de shi, wo hui yi zhi sms ni de
9.22am: wo mei you honeymoon! mei you mei you
9.23am: haix , dear, my heart so pain
9.26am: dear, ru guo ni xiang xin wo ni bu yao xin tong hao ma? wo ai ni
8.27am: xiang xin ni, ke shi the fact u guys going to that alcoholic party! zai pian wo zi ji dang mei fan sheng shen me ma?
9.31am: qu le ni men de gan qing yue lai yue hao, wo gen ben mei ji hui he ni yi qi, shuo ni yong yuan he wo yi qi , ke shi ni yao zuo de bing bu shi ni shuo de, ni yue lai yue ai ta na wo ne? wo de bday ni du bu yao pei wo, but owez promise me say future future future . but eventually also with him!
9.33am: wo da ying ni, wo hui zhao gu zi ji, wo bu hui luan lai de , dear, wo zhen de you xiang dao ni.
9.33am: ni zhe yang zuo na ni jue de ni australia hui lai le you shen me fen bie? ji shi yao he ta break up? ke shi wo kan de shi ni men de gan qing yue lai yue hao
9.36am: shen me!? haix, qu honeymoon then promise me bu hui luan lai? qi ta de ne? bu hui shang wo ma? ni men yi qi qu wo hen xin tong! dear a...bu yao qu hao ma, qiu qiu ni TT, i pay back compensation hao ma, pls dont hurt me hao ma? pls...
9.43am: my heart very pain a, my heart really very pain!! you dont even care me!
9.43am: ru guo wo bu shi he ta qu ni hai hui xin tong ma?
9.44am: bu hui
9.48am: dear, bu shi zai yi qi gan qing jiu hui hao de, na wei shen me liang gong po zai yi qi sheng huo hai hui li hun ne?
9.55am: bu yong give such lame example le, go honeymoon can cause relationship better only! no need pretend go with other ppl , already register also, good la, ppl early in the morning cry, you early in the morning post your BOY sing bday song de video and tag all friends, so happy o! your friends, bf so awesome, know sing, know make fun video, know make you laugh know dance also! my heart so pain while you celebrating something? pls just kill me! haix, ya la, me dont know your frens de, so cant mix with you, love me but worry your frens will think bad if you change bf, you only care how ppl think of you but not with world only two of us, early morning ady like this celebrate, you really too OVER!! too MUCH!! my heart so pain now!!!
10.16am: i said all correct le, thats why you no reply coz you have no more excuse nor lame excuse HAIX, why you like this hurt me, i really dont understand
10.20am: hao, ni zhun bei qu party le? pack le ma? jiayou
10.23am: ni ji dian depart?
10.22am: bu shi zhe yang de, yin wei wo zai shuo shen me ni ye bu hui kai xin de, wo shuo shen me du deng yu zai shang hai ni a
10.26am: yin wei ni bei wo fa xian ni dui wo shuo le BIG LIES, i most afraid is gv u lie, i cant believe you really did it, my heart so broken, why you still have that mood to celebrate de? i really dont understand!
10.40am: HAIX!
10.42am: zhen me bu li wo le? zhun bei qu party hai shi celebration? HAIX!
10.44am: dear, bu yao zhe yang shuo wo, wo mei pian ni
10.46am: dear, dui bu qi, ke shi wo zhen de hen xin tong, dear, ni bu yao le hao ma? wo bu xi huan
10.47am: wo huan gei ni qian
10.48: ni gen ta break up ba, i cant bear this feeling anymore, wo de xin hen tong
11.05am : my heart so pain dear
11.08am: zhen yang? bu she de fang le hao de free trip? ni ting ni de fren shuo hai shi ying ni zui ai de nan sheng shuo, wo jiao ni bu yao qu , wo huan gei ni qian hao ma? bu yao qu a! bu yao qu!
11.12am: haix haix haix haix!! shuo hua hao ma?
11.14am: dear, wo bu shi bu she de, qing ni xiang xin wo yi ci hao ma?
11.16am: ni bu shi bu she de? rang hou ne? xiang xin ni shen me? xiang xin ni bu hui qu trip? xiang xin ni he ta break up?
11.20am: wo yao ni xiang xin wo , wo bu hui zuo cuo shi
11.25am: wo bu shi dan xin na ge ni dao di ming bu ming bai de, wo shi xin tong ni men qu paktor, ni men paktor at mall wo bu jie yi, xian zai shi ni men 2 days 1 nite paktor, i very jealous, my heart very pain ni dong ma
11.37am: u very like tht video? funny? still gt mood laugh when watch it? excited to make frens happy and all the happy comments? enjoy everything ma? my heart pain watching it! haix
11.46am: you xi shi qing bu shi ni kan dao jiu shi ni xiang de na yang , dear, bu yao zai zhe yang hao ma?
11.48am: ni bu yao qu trip le, gei wo ni de bank number, wo xian zai qu bank huan gei ni compensation
11.54am: fast! kuai dian gei wo
11.58am: ni bu yao qian ni wei shen me yao qu? yao zhao xin fu? yao paktor? yao honeymoon?
11.57am: dear, wo bu shi yao ni de qian, ni bu yao zhe yang wo hen nan guo
11.59am: wo bi ni nan guo
12.04pm: gao shu wo
12.07pm: zhen me shi ni upload ne? yin wei ni record de? bcoz tht video contains your man? zhen me bu shi qi ta ren ne? gao shu wo
12.13pm: wo zhi dao ni bu shi wei le qian qu, wo shi yi shi , wo huan gei ni compensation, wo jiao ni bu yao qu
12.15pm: zhen me mei reply? ni he ta zai chu qu paktor bu fang bian!?
12.17pm: dear , ni wei le wo gen ta feng shou ba, wo hen xin tong
12.21pm: my heart pain till now
12.25pm: ni men zai paktor ma?
12.26pm: dear
12.32pm: dear, dian hua yao mei dian le, wo deng xia sms ni hao ma?
12.34pm: shi ma? hai sih he ta zai yi qi beach party?
12.36pm: ni zai na li dear
12.36pm: dear, bu guan he shui zai yi qi wo du hui xiang dao ni, du hui sms ni 
12.37pm: haix, yi shi shuo ni zai he ta yi qi?
12.40pm: ni hai you xin qing he ta yi qi chu qu? hai you xin qing chu qu celebrate bday? dear, wo de bday ne? ni hui bang wo upload video ma? you shen me surprise ma? you shen me plan ma? haix
12.42pm: dear, wo xiang ni
12.44: dear! hui da wo de wen ti, ni he ta zai yi qi ma? deng xia chu qu celebrate bday? wo de bday ni you shen me plan ma?
12.50pm: dear, bu yao shuo zhe xie hao ma? yue shuo ni hui yue xin tong, wo bu xiang shuo
12.53pm: ni bu yao shuo yin wei ni bu zai jia, ni zai he ta yi qi paktor, bu shuo yin wei deng xia ni he ni de gang celebrate party, bu shuo yin wei wo bday mei shen me surprise, zhi you sms wo, HAIX
1.03pm: dear, ni bu yao zhe yang shuo, wo bu zhi dao zhen yang hui da ni
1.05pm: ni bu hui zhen yang hui da yin wei wo shuo quan bu du dui de
1.19pm: haix, ni man man he ta chi ba
1.29pm: i miss you , charge wan le zhao wo hao ma? i very miss u
1.44pm: i miss you.......
2.05pm: ni he ta zai mang ma?
2.13pm: dear

2.24pm: dear, wo xiang ni, ni zai zuo me
2.27pm: zai zhuang emo, shen me du bu yao zuo, deng ni paktor hui lai, deng shi jian kuai kuai guo ni kuai kuai bday party hui lai, kuai kuai trip hui lai , wo de xin hai tong, haix
2.30pm : dear, ni bu yao zhe yang, ni qu chong liang chi dong xi hao ma? bu yao emo hao ma?
2.33pm: wo zhen de mei xin qing , wo zuo wan ku dao lei le, wo ye hen fan nao, wo hai mei chi, mei wei kou, ni zai paktor ma? miss you
2.38pm: dear, wo xiang ni, wo ye hen dan xin ni, ni bu yao zhe yang le hao ma? bu yao ku dear
2.41pm: wo mei ku, wo ku dao lei le, mei yan lei le
2.46pm: dear, dui bu qi rang ni ku le, xian zai qu chong liang hao ma? haiz
2.47pm: ni zai zuo me, he ta yi qi zai zuo me?
2.51pm: ni zai xiang wo? ni dao di zai na li? wei shen me shang le wo hai yao guan xin wo? wei shen me mei yi ci zhe yang dui wo
2.59pm: dear, wo ai ni, wo bu shi gu yi zhe yang de
2.55pm: ni he ta qian shou bu yong sms ba, bu fang bian , bu yong mah fan ni le, wo xian zai si bu guo de
3.30pm: bu shi gu yi? ni da suan he ta honeymoon bu shi gu yi? then is what huh? dear, ni du mei da suan li kai ta de, hai yao he ta honeymoon, paktor celebrate fren bday, you promise me de all you din do, what  also no plan guo for me
3.03pm: dear, ni xi huan shuo shen me ni jing guan shuo, wo hui ting de
3.05pm: ni bu kai xin ke yi ma wo, dui wo fa pi qi
3.06pm: dear , wo gao shu ni, bu shi mei yi ge shi du sun zhi ci ran jiu you solution le, ni xian zai xiang shi cuo de, ni xian zai cuo le bu hui gai bian shen me ye bu hui wei le wo zuo shen me, zhi neng rang wo hen qi dai, fa dai ba le, mei gai bian shen me de
3.09pm: wo bu kai xin, ma ni , dui ni fa pi qi, zhe yang hui gai bian xiang fa, hui rang ni li kai ta, hui rang ni cancel ni na ge trip ma? hui gai bian shen me a!! gao sh wo! hui rang wo bu xin tong le?
3.20pm: gao shu wo gao shu wo gao shu wo gao shu wo gao shu wo gao shu wo gao shu wo 
3.22pm: haix
3.23pm: ni zhe yang xiang ye shi dui de, wo mei you gei guo ni an quan gan, zhi hui yi ci you yi ci nong ni bu kai xin, dear, ni bu yao zai shuo le, wo ming bai de
3.29pm: wo ai ni
3.31pm: en ni ai wo, ni shuo wo you ni de 100% xin ke shi ni he ta honeymoon bu yao pei wo guo sheng ri, ni hao ai wo o, ni dui wo de ai shi zhe yang de? hen hao!
3.36pm: dear, ni bu yong xiang xin wo shuo guo de hua, bu yao xiang xin , zhe yang jiu bu hui bei wo shang hai le
3.39pm: wo tai ai ni le CS, ni xian zai guo de hen kai xin ma? he ta men celebrate bday, he ta honeymoon bu shi ni hen xiang yao de ma? ni bu xi huan ni bu hui zuo, ni bu xi huan zhen me hai yao qu join contest, wei shen me register, wei shen me tag ta? zuo de shi ni xiang de, shi ni xin yao zuo de!
3.46pm: wo xian zai shuo shen me du bu hui rang ni jue de hao guo de
3.59pm: dear, wo hen lei , xiang wo men yi hou zhen yang xiang dao lei le, wo hen pa yi hou ni ye shi dui wo shuo dui bu qi zhi ji hua shang wo, ke shi wo zhi dao dui ni hen nan zuo, wo ye shi dao ni bu she de wo, wo ye bu she de kan ni jia gei ta, wo zai xiang, shi jian hui bu hui gai bian wo de sheng huo, dear, wo xi wang pei wo dao zui hou de ren shi ni, i wish you are my soulmate, my wife
3.59pm: ni xian zai de dao zuo dao ni xiang zuo de dong xi le, ke shi ni zhi dao ma ni ye shang le hen ai hen ai  ni de nan sheng, dear , wo zhu ni de honeymoon he bday celebration shun li, zhu ni he ni de bf he ni de peng you kuai kuai le le
4.05pm : sui ran wo mei you gai bian shen me, ke shi wo shi zhen de ai ni, wo xiang he ni shuo bu yao zai ai wo ke shi wo tan xin ni de ai, wo yao zhen me ban?
4.06pm: ni li kai ta ba
4.15pm: dear, ta shi wu gu de, wo yao zen yang dui ta shuo chu kou?
4.17pm: ru guo ni jue de deng le yao he wo yi qi yi sheng yi shi, zhen me ni xian zai hai yao he ta paktor? hai yao wei ta xiang , hai yao qu honeymoon, zhen me ni jue ding le yi hou wo shi ni de laogong, zhen me bu yao gei wo quan bu, fang le ni bf he peng you lai wo de shen bian , wei shen me..haix...
4.20pm : shuo bu chu kou shi jie kou, ni mei da suan li kai ta, hai ke yi yue ta qu honeymoon, zhe ge shi ni li kai ta de plan ma? just tell me u love him too!
4.26pm: dear , wo zuo cuo shi ying gai rang wo yi ge ren tong ku, ke shi wo lian lei le ni rang ni guo de na me tong ku
4.29pm: ni shuo na me duo, zui hou ni ye bu hui li kai ta, ni ye ai ta, wo xiang dao ni men honeymoon wo de xin zhen hao tong, ni da ying wo dear, da ying wo ni hui he ta feng shou, da ying wo ah!
4.39pm: zhen yang? da ying bu dao wo?
4.43pm: wo da ying ni
4.44pm: hao xie xie ni wo deng ni
4.46pm: shuo bu chu kou? cancel ni de trip ne? ye shuo bu chu kou ma?
4.46pm: wo ai ni bu gou sheng, wo dui ni bu gou hao , wo zhi dao de
4.50pm: dear , ni lei le qu xiu xi hao ma?
4.51pm: bu yao, wo shui le , ni mei he wo sms le, ni he ta qian shou
5.02pm: dear, wo mei you, ni shui xia hao ma?
5.03pm: bu yao.....haix dear, ni yi ding yao qu na ge trip ma? bu qu bu ke yi ma?
5.20pm: haix, bu yong hui da le, ni kai kai xin xin honeymoon ba , wo fan dao wo lei le
5.22pm: doing what? holding his hand?
5.27pm: gang cai fa bu dao gei ni, dear , ni shui ba
5.29pm: wo shuo le wo bu yao shui, deng xia shui le ni he ta celebrate bday qian shou, wo bu hui gei ni ji hui you shi jian qian ta de shou de
5.31pm: ni bu yao qu trip ba! haix
5.34pm: ta wu gu?! na wo ne? haix, ni you hen xin shang wo, ni du bu hen xin shang ta!, hai yao yue ta honeymoon, very very good ah!
5.37pm: good la, this morning video celebration, to9 party celebration, what a great day with frens and D while i depress whole day, good job!
5.38pm: dear , ni bu yao zhe yang la, wo zhi dao ni hen lei le, wo deng ni xing le sms wo
5.39pm: bu yao!! i wish can die now you know ma? you think i could sleep now? wo hen fan nao

5.39pm: na li you bday party? 
5.40pm: to9 no celebrate? then do what now? dating?
5.41pm: dear, ni bu yao zhe yang la, wo zhi dao ni hen lei le, wo deng ni xing le sms wo
5.45pm: so eager, desperate and excited for 2days 1 nite trip? dont know what to wear and where? HAIX!!
5.48pm: i dont understand! why must u join that stupid application and win it, you win le what? win le hurt me de ticket? my mood whole day down!
5.48pm: dear , ni bu yao zai fan le, wo qiu qiu ni, bu yao zhe yang wei nan zi ji hao ma? wo zhi dao wo nong ni xin tong ni xian zai ya wo nei jiu, haix
5.50pm: ni xian zai you ticket le, hen kai xin ma? hen excited ma? honeymoon!? WOOT! free o! so love to drink alcohol o!
5.59pm: wo bu zhi dao hui zhe yang de
6.00pm: hahahahah, ni  shuo ni meng jian he wo qian shou ni hen kai xin, he wo paktor hen kai xin, ke shi du mei kan dao ni zhe yang zuo, instead , hai ke yi yue ta qu honeymoon, zhen me ni dui wo shuo he ni zuo de bing bu yi yang de? zhen me bu yao yue wo ne> pa chu mai ta?ni shuo bu hui zuo dui bu qi de shi, zhi ji hua ni ying gai he ta shuo, bu shi he wo shuo
6.04pm: hen hou hui
6.04pm: bu zhi dao hui zhe  yang? bu shi ni yue ta shi ta yue ni? you win le you post at fb so excited somemore told whole world and tag ur bf, xian zai ni dui wo shuo bu shi ni yao zhe yang de? ming ming shi ni zhe yang zuo, abo is ghost?want to tell me he log in ur fb and help u win and tag himself? dear, wo de xin hao tong ahh!! wei shen me shi zhe yang de!!
6.06pm: wo wu hua ke shuo le, dui bu qi
6.09pm: suan le dear, ni enjoy ur honeymoon with him ba, my heart ady broken into pieces, pain so pain, very pain, feel want cry but no tears le
6.09pm: wo bu shi shuo zhe ge!
6.12pm: wo de yi shi shuo mei xiang dao ni hui na me da de fan ying, hao ba, wo bu shuo le, wo yue shuo hui rang ni wu hui gen da, dui bu qi le
6.17pm: wo hen ai ni, ni he ta honeymoon wo ying gai xiao fan ying? wo de xin hen tong ni zhi bu zhi dao? tong dao wo ku le, wo cuo le ma? ni men qu paktor wo ke yi zhuang bu zhi dao ? i also gt feelings de, now my most loved girl want with her bf honeymoon le , wo zi ji de sheng ri yao dao ni du bu yao wei wo zuo shen me, ni jue de wo hui zhen yang feel ne? ni zhi dao wo hen tong ku ma?!zhi dao wo hen ann guo hen shang xin ma?
6.32pm: i also gt limit de, you like this do me too over ady, you know ma i also gt feeling gt temper d, i really cant control myself , i never expect u will hurt me this far, why u can do like tht to me without consider my feeling? why must u do like this when i am going to have lonely bday soon without ur presence? heart so pain....
6.49pm: dear, wo zhe yang dui ni, zen yang yao mian dui ni?
6.51pm: wo ye bu zhi dao, wo hen fan, haix...
7.01pm: wo hen lei dear, wo hen lei, hen lei hen lei...

7.05pm:  wo zhen de mei xin qing le , dear, ni xiu xi ba, bu yao sms le
7.08pm: hao de...i abit fever now...bu shuo le
7.18pm: dui bu qi, haix
7.23pm: dear, ni zhao gu zi ji hao ma?
7.26pm: ni enjoy ba, bu yao wei le wo bu kai xin le, xian zai not just my body n head tired, my soul very tired, heartache
7.44pm: dear, dui bu qi....
7.46pm: dui bu qi dear, jin tian wo zhen de tai guo fen le, wo shuo de zhen de tai guo fen le
7.48pm : dear, wo hen nei jiu rang ni sheng bing le, ni yao xiu xi bu yao zai fan le, wo shi zhen de hen nan guo de
7.56: mei shi le, ni qu honeymoon ba, wo bu jie yi le , dan shi ni yao xiang wo he sms wo o, dear, bu yao xiang tai duo le , kai xin dian ba, wo ai ni....
7.53pm: ni mei cuo, ni shuo de hen dui, wo jiu shi zhe yang yi ge bu zhi de ni de ai ren, dui bu qi de ren shi wo
8.04pm: dear, ni chong liang le ma? jin tian mei chi dong xi shi ma? fa shao le ni chi yao hao ma? wo xian zai hen dan xin ni dear, ni deng xia chi le ke yi shui jiao ma?
8.08pm: mei chi yao, lilttle fever only, hen kuai hao le, wo chi dinner ba le, wo mei shi de dear, ni chi le ma? dui bu qi dear, wo hen ai ni
8.12pm: chi le , dear , ni qu xiu xiu hao ma?
8.13pm: wo ke yi fang xin xiu xi ma? deng xia ni qian ta de shou, haix
8.17pm: dear, ni fang xin qu shui hao ma? wo zhen de xin tong le
8.17pm: bu yao xin tong dear, haix
8.24pm: ni ke yi da ying wo shui xia ma? ke yi ma?
8.31pm: dear, ni kuai qu shui hao ma?
8.32pm: ni ne?
8.35pm: wo hui xiang ni, deng ni xing le sms wo
8.38pm: wo ye ai ni dear, ni xian zai qu shui ba, wo xiang ni
8.49pm : wo chi fan
9.00pm: dear, ni qu xiu xi xia
9.00pm: wo shui bu zhao, i miss you
9.05pm: dear , ni xian shui xia ba
9.05pm: shui bu zhao, wo bu she de ni
9.16pm: dear, zen me bu she de ne? ni bu shu fu shui xia hui mei shi de, guai la
9.17pm: bu yao, bu fang xin li kai ni, wo yao keep an eye on you, wo mei bing, shi you dian fever ba le , small matter ba le
9.26pm: dear, wo zhi dao  ni zuo wan dao xian zai du mei shui hao, wei shen me bu neng shui xia ne?
9.33pm: bu yao zhe yang hao ma? dear
9.34pm: zai he D and gang celebrate bday?
9.38pm: mei la dear, haix, zhen me bu shu fu hai dan xin wo ne?
9.40pm: yin wei pa, tao yan ni he ta men yi qi kai kai xin xin, wo yao ni pei wo
9.46pm: dear, ni xing le wo yi yang ke yi pei ni de
9.48pm: bu yong shui ba, hen kuai jiu yao ming tian le
9.50pm: wo wan shang yao call ni
9.55pm: zen me hui na me kuai jiu ming tian ne? jin wan zao dian shuo hao ma?
9.57pm: bu yao, wo yao call ni, wo bu guan , left 2hours jiu ming tian a..
10.00pm: na shi shui jiao de shi jian , ni jin wan bu neng chi shui dear, ting dao ma?
10.06pm: hao de , ke shi bu neng tai chi shui, da ying wo hao ma?
10.08pm: dear, i hate carlsbeg, i hate where is the paRty! hate all! HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE!!
10.13pm: dear, ai ni
10.15pm: wo ye shi dear, haix, sorry
10.18pm: bu yao shuo dui bu qi, wo hui nei jiu de, dear , wo xiang ni
10.23pm: dear, wo ye shi, hen dan xin ni , pa ni wei le wo sheng bing le, haix
10.43pm: dear , ni cong lai mei zuo cuo guo, wo shuo zhen de, ni ye mei guo fen, shi you ren shang ni , ni cai hui zhe yang de, wo zhi dao ni bu shi chou pi qi de nan sheng, wo bu neng guai ni ye bu hui guai ni de, wo ai ni
10.49pm: dear, shi ni mei shui hao, ni ying gai zhao dian shui de, ni xian zai shui hao ma?
10.54pm: dear , wo bu yao ni sehng bing, ni yao hao hao shui o

* she puts all her effort and her lucky to win that ticket, she wish to go enjoy her luckypot but bcoz i sad so much , she might change partner would she? wouldnt be a guy but a girl , but bring a girl instead of bf? who on earth which girl will do that? bringing her bf , he can care her, care her all the trip long, altho like this, BUT I REALLY DISLIKE!! I JEALOUS!!! MY HEART PAIN!!!! haiz...but i so wish she happy and enjoy her luckypot too..she such a weak girl she needs ppl care....HAIZ!! *

* i wrote this till 2am , since yesterday wrote this, she said will have call with me to9 but she slept, i will wait her wake up and call her, i dont want disturb her right now, she must be tired now..haix..ILY dear..i really love you *

heartache for a day bcoz of stupid alcohol event...

today i made a big fuss because of the ticket she won to stupid carlsbeg competition...thinking about she wearing bikini with her boy half naked playing at the beach, having that stupid alcohol and then make love at the nite!! 2 days 1 nite stupid party organized by pervert stupid idiot white guy!!!! HATE IT SO MUCH...
heart so pain today...keep sms her, so frus...keep sms what cross my mind without care her feelings, keep sms without my logical mind and conscience ..even used many "!" symbol like i was so assertive....heart so pain yesterday...have sleepless night...when she woke up i tot she would reply me, but she didnt,instead she still have mood post a stupid so called hilarious video from her bf bday greeting...ya la so much fun!!???? so eager and excited to read the comments????? why still have mood to post such video when a guy who loves u is crying whole day night and u woke up u did this .......then i saw her on9 awhile but she was afraid to leave any comment anymore...then she immediately off9, ..then for the rest of whole day i kept frustrated and sms her , until she speechless, i told her all the facts even asked her to promise me to break up with him, i know it is hard for her to speak out for break up because she very sayang him and thinks that he is innocent ...kept sms until she said she has no mood anymore , she said she is depressed, and heartache....sigh..all bcoz of me....then i apologized to her....i very sorry dear....i make mess only....
went to tht stupid alcohol site again, saw all the party pictures, i guess she must be happy if she go there to play the events soon....it is me who stopped her, why i make her sad? she shud deserve this free ticket...it is me who wrong....who make it big fuss..but i cant be helped at all...my heart pain imagining u guys holding hand at the party...im so naive right? ...u guys are couple thts normal..but as a third party my heart really pain...

Friday 24 June 2011

mcD delivery

i asked whether i could dabao her mcD supper like her bf did which makes her happy so much..she said "dear, yi hou yao ni mei tian dao ni bu yao shuo wo hen fan o.." ...haiz..dear..i imagining i go to ur house deliver tht mcD i already enough happy le...so happy can get chance to sayang u....why u like this reply me..u make my desire and daydream getting stronger...i really wish to sayang u dear...not to say mcD la..if wan me pluck moon from sky gv u i also will le...
she replied again le...she said "dear , ni you ji hui na yang zuo de, xie xie dear" ....
dear..i will always remember what u said this...i take it as a promise!!! ^^

haiz................she really doing this for me? although im happy but.....

dear: dear , wo xiang ni, dui bu qi

me: zhen me dui bu qi le...haiz

dear: yin wei gang cai ni hen nan guo, wo nong dao ni xin tong le

me: bu shi ni , shi ni de laogong, ni zhi dao wo zai deng , ke shi, ni mei end ta de call hai shi reply wo de incoming sms yin wei yao he ta zhuan xin jiang hua shi ying gai de,  zhe yang xian shi ta de hao laopo, suan le dear..haiz, wo mei guai ni, ni mei cuo , ni ye hen nan zuo de...wo ming bai

dear: wo yi hou zhi dao yao zhen yang le, dear

me(extra sms b4 i got her next sms): wo hai ji de yi qian ni zai he wo call de shi hou, ta yao call lai, ni jiu end wo de call le, wo yong yuan bu hui wang ji na tian

dear: dear, bu hui le , zhen de bu hui zai na yang le...

me: dear, ni zhen me dui wo bi yi qian na me hao? wo hen kai xin ni hui wei le wo zhe yang zuo, ke shi wo bu zhi dao wei shen me wo bu shi zhen zhen kai xin, yin wei rang ni hen nan zuo le , dear, zhen me ni dui wo bi yi qian hao hen duo le ?
(PS: in my heart im thinking that recently she really treats me damn nice, she always on call with me every9 without any disturbance call from her bf, i duno if that slot is given and booked for me or she asked her bf not to call her at nite, i also wondering if it is because she wants to grant my wish to listen her voice everyday before she leaves to australia because i told her that no time left for us, life is too short and our time together is even shorter so i told her i wish can call u everyday at least an hour 1/24 hours a day because i  "she bu de" and i will miss her voice so much soon after she not here anymore , so i want to fill my life with call with her and satisfy myself before she leaves me and leave me an empty call and empty life in future)

apology

7.42 pm : she said she miss me and apologize again, i asked why, she said because just now she got me depressed and heart pain.........i know she still thinkin about just now evening call with bf which hurt me alot, she said she never expected her bf will call her that time, and now i wonder why she never expect her bf to call her at nite because all awhile i have chance to call her at nite, i guess bcoz she already set time for her bf to call her and telling him to call him b4 11pm just to gv slot to me? ..shud i be happy or sad now? HAIZ
just now evening call to console me , she said she used her heart telling me all the facts of hers, the fact tht she loves me
and she said she understands my heart, understand my thoughts, now ...in my mind..i  am thinking if i were her, a guy treat me so good, waiting after my bf called me, and heart broken but yet never give up , and after the call ended , still sms me care me so much, and worrying when i dont reply him , and called me for second time asking why i didnt reply sms and asked what am i busying and then i cheated him by giving so many lame excuses.....so...if i were her...i would also feel touched and very love this boy..dear.....because I LOVE YOU TOO!

i am only a third party,...even queue to call her..sigh

today i went back to office earlier just for convenient to call her, i asked whether it is okay to call her around 5pm , she said okay, i reached office like 4.5pm and wait her...she din reply my sms, so i expected something wrong, i tried call her and cant...because someone is calling her....her BF calling !!!....haiz...and i just dont understand why she said she loves me 100% but why cant she ends his call then? why she knew many incoming msg but she din even reply ANY of them......my heart so pain..she gave me lame excuse that she wasnt using earphone so cant reply me, i dont care u wear or not i just care why didnt u just end his call? then i kept callin her every single minute to test whether the call has ended or not....5.22pm ..she ended her call, and my turn to call..i feel suck being a third party bcoz i feel like queue-ing up after her bf just to call her, in the call i feel like crying...i feel myself so pity....so CHEAP....suck ...do a third party...haiz...she tried to convince me again but she didnt talk many, she wish i just scold her to make herself better but she knows i wont bcause i never did tht , because I LOVE HER!! i didnt go back earlier from work today just to need her covers back the time we lost because of her bf call!~ i wan to talk to her more....my heart so pain!! i want her to console me...i need her voice
~~ few minutes later , i reached home , i checked her fb again, she was on9 , i sent many sms to her she din reply , she gave lame excuse again saying she was falling asleep so din realise my sms, but actually she was busy chatting on fb...with who? HAIZ...then i called her, i asked her what she will do next, she said DUNO, so i suggested her why dont we chat on fb, then she gv LAME excuse again saying more convenient to sms bcoz phone can bring anywhere...*i know bcause she just doesnt wan me on her fb , her life will become only mine, she sees me she will feel guilty and more becareful with what she is doing on fb, thts why she didnt add me bcoz she will have no freedom to LOVE her boy!!~ and then i asked what she does always on fb, chat right? she said no la..she said many things to see..like news..what??! news? i dun think u meant current issues but more to facebook frens issues ba..!!! HAIZ...so then, lame excuse again..sigh..i asked again does she gaming..she said NO..after asked so much she started to know that im stalking her, so right after my call i see her fb status again it is OFF.......compared to b4 , b4 i complained so much about she having her BF's supper...bii <3 supper <---  OK so hurt to write this,,,,haiz...but still im writing it out...after i complained , she never write tht except tht stupid honeymoon competition calsberg and tagged her boy...and just saw her comment to calsberg that she still demanding tht free ticket!! SIGH!! why so desperate honeymoon with ur boy!!?? my heartttt so pain!!!!!!my heart really pain u know ma!!! .........so less then i see her reply her bf comment................BECAUSE I'VE COMPLAINED AND SHE KNOWS IM STALKING

Thursday 23 June 2011

wo xi wang ni shuo ni ai wo , xiang he wo yi qi shi zhen de, bu shi pian de

dear, ni zhi dao ma, wo zai xiang yi qian wo zai kl central deng ktm , deng hen jiu , suo yi wo call le ni, na ge shi hou ni pian wo, ni shuo ni bu zhi dao ktm hui qu dao na li yin wei ni zhu bukit beruang , ni ye shuo guo ni bu zhi dao shen me shi faculty, na ge shi hou wo shi yong xin qu gao shu ni shen me shi faculty,ke shi , zui hou wo hao shi wang yin wei yuan lai ni shen me du pian wo de, ni de name,age,location and relationship status quan bu du shi jia de,zhi dao le wo de xin zhen tong, dear, ni hen li hai shuo pian hua, ke shi wo xi wang ni shuo ni ai wo, yao pei wo yi sheng yi shi na ji hua bu shi jia de, yin wei wo zhen de ai shang le ni,
dear ni zhi dao ma, wo hen pa hui fa xian ni zai dui wo shua pian hua, wo hen pa zhi dao wo zhe ge wo xiang xin , zui ai de nv sheng zai gen wo shua pian hua, wo hen pa bei ni shang hai, dear , wo zhen de ai zhe ni , wo xi wang ni bu hui pian wo le, i am a human with feelings too

wo xiang dao lei le

see her relationship with bf so good, i guess it will take so much time for me and her to get together, or maybe she sayang both guy but eventually also dont make any difference , eventually still sorry to me...because the graph will remain parallel ....
dear, wo hen lei...xiang dao wo men yi hou hui zhen yang, xiang dao wo lei le, wo hen pa yi hou ni ye shi dui wo shuo dui bu qi zhi ji hua, qu shang wo, ke shi wo zhi dao, dui ni hen nan zuo, wo ye zhi dao ni bu she de wo , wo ye she bu de ni kan ni jia gei ta, wo zai xiang shi jian hui bu hui gai bian wo de sheng huo,
dear...
wo xi wang pei wo dao zui hou de ren shi ni,
          WO AI NI

ta xiang wo le

if i were her....

zuo ta hen xin ku..you shi fa xian le ta he ta <3 , ta jue de nei jiu, xiang ben fa an wei wo...qi shi yao ta zhen me zuo ne? ta bu xiang shang hai liang ge ren, ta ye ai wo, ta hen nan zuo de, ta ye bu hen xin fang qi wo, zuo ta de, zhen xin ku..wo ming bai de...
dear...im thinkin tht day u said ni chong lai mei na me dan xin guo yi ge ren, wo shi ni di yi...DEAR..wo hen gan dong....ni ye yi zhi dui wo hen hao...wo fan de shi hou shi ni share my problems...wo bu kai xin de shi hou..shi ni an wei wo....
dear, i have no regrets waiting...i will definitely wait u, because I VERY LOVE U!!!

convince me -

ta hui pei wo yi sheng yi sheng....~ forever love ~ ta shi zhen de ai zhe wo de..mei pian wo...






i will wait her to back to keep her promises...ILY dear..i really waiting






Wednesday 22 June 2011

CMA

just called her till 1am..very happy...just now when i sad bcoz of CMA competition stuff...i din reply her like 50min and then she started to worry and sms me again..i was so touched..
and just now...she called me...i was so touched again!! awww....but i ended the call and call her back..i miss her laughter till now..awwwww...I LOVE HER SO  MUCH !!!

Monday 20 June 2011

miss her laughter

just called her just now....and now i still miss her laughter so much..i love her hard laughter..it sounds so women ..like a wife..." my wife" haha..i love her so much....love to listen to it..bcoz I heart her <3

Sunday 19 June 2011

you promised me...my love , my dear

dear..this is the song i meant on the phone just now....

i hope u keep your promise that u would meet me after u back from aussie...i really wish that day would come..ILY so much dear....I LOVE YOU!!!

just had a lovely call with her....

just had a call with her...i feel very blissful that she said someday im gonna sleep beside her and she will kick me from the bed to floor..aww...i just wish someday that will happen to us ..if only could be...and she said if that day will come and then im her "laogong" ....i got so happy listened that..
she also said that when she comes back from aussie she definitely gonna find me..she said bcoz she likes me , she loves me and many many manyyyyyyy more reasons.....
when i listened to that i got so happy.....bcoz my dear really really loves me..i knew it before!! ^__^
just now i told her not to wear lens that much bcoz not good to eyes...i accept her imperfection and i would like if she has nothing attached to her face..i love her original face...i very love her with my heart...deep inside very very love her!! aha..she accidentally slept again during the call..awww..so cute...love her so much..love her rolling on bed while calling ..like a cat...pampering with the bed aha...she said she just cant listen to a call in 1 position..feel awkward she says...haha..she so cute..i love her so much!!

bu yao tai liao jie wo le...

dear: ni hai zai xiang mama shuo de hua ma?
me: en...nvm parents just dont understand do they? because we are already an adult, many things just cant be spoken out because they might think oppositely with what we are doing, thats why i said, the only human wo understand my whole heart content is my only love,that is u, L C S
dear: wo liao jie ni si yin wei ni ba xin gei wo le, ni zhi dao ma?
me: wo zhi dao dear, ni ye bu yao tai liao jie wo le, ni hui bu hao guo de, zhi neng rang ni jue de nei jiu ba le, wo bu xiang ni zhe yang, wo yao ni kai xin guo mei yi tian...
dear: zhi ji hua mei ci shi wo dui ni shuo de, jin tian ni dui wo shuo le , dear...ni ye yao kai xin guo mei yi tian o..kiss


 p.s : mei yi ci du yao ni an wei wo, zhen dui bu qi, zuo tian de shi ye yao ni xing qi lai sms wo 4am dao 7am, zhi you ni zhe ge sha gua hui na me chi xing qi lai an wei wo, hui wo de msg......wo nan guo de shi hou, zhi you ni neng an wei wo...dear wo hao ai ni, wo yong yuan ai ni...wo ai ni....

didnt have good sleep~~

yesterday we did not sleep well..both of us..because of me...because i suspected she was lying me, i kept asking explanation from her at 4am....we texted till 4.3am and she slept..i kept sms her till 5.2am..and at 7am she texted me again...long text...sigh...i know she cares me..i love u so much dear...sorry for the murmur..it was because I TOO LOVE YOU LE!!!! T...T

Saturday 18 June 2011

sigh..u were such liar...

din reply my msg..pretending sleeping?....but  i saw ur facebook is ON ! haizzz...

Wednesday 15 June 2011

she went out... i feel so empty and lonely

she went out with friends to9, i did not worry if she actually went with bf..but ..i very miss her..i keep looking at her pictures on my mobile..i hope time passes fast that i can soon receive her sms...i waited 30min...i behtahan le..i went to sms her...she said "dear, wo you xiang ni, zhen de "
..very happy got her sms again..haha...i love her so much...love her....